This autoethnographic inquiry explores a personal transformation, tracing the author’s journey from a career in banking to that of an educational researcher. The narrative centers on a “disorienting dilemma” and the realization that foundational truths, like geometric axioms, are conditional. This rupture challenged deeply ingrained binary thinking, leading to an embodied and existential crisis that extended beyond purely rational reflection. The article, presented in a hybrid form that combines narrative, poetry, and collage, illustrates how this initial disorientation fostered a shift toward embracing complexity, pluralism, and an ongoing, fluid identity. It argues that transformation is a recursive, relational process, extending beyond cognitive shifts to reshape one’s being across professional, personal, and spiritual domains.
Ajit Bhattarai (Sat,) studied this question.