An Auto-ethnography Research of A Counselor Experienced the Family Violence

The purpose of this study is to verify a counselor’s psychological status who experienced a family violence , various experiences in the process of growing up and overcoming it, and the attitude of life as a counselor with an auto-ethnography research. In order to do this research, information was collected from the researcher’s meories, diaries from school days, self-reflection notes and in- terviews with family members. The effect of family violence on spouses or children was classified, and the process of transmission of violence between generations was reconstructed to study how the process of overcoming it with counseling theory was related to the process of growth. Emotional abuse and internalized shame affected self-centered personality, so personal relationships were not smooth, and the research had felt freezing up and chosen disconnection when facing certain situations. Rather than blaming the situation, the researcher have been studying the process of achieving dreams on her own. To overcome psychological trauma, the researcher began studying counseling and person-centered counseling to control emotional abuse and internalized shame. Therefore, overcoming hardships and adversity, the researcher has grown up into a school counselor who has a decent attitude as an adult. This study is meaningful in providing treatment clues to those who are struggling with the similar problems along with the researcher’s self-understanding, which are recognizing and accepting internalized shame, emotional abuse, and psychological trauma caused by family violence. Just writing auto-ethnography paper itself can give positive influence and be helpful to victims of abuse and counselors who are suffering from hardships and adversity.