An Autoethnography on the Healing and Growth of a Tall Christian Middle-Aged Woman with Trauma

Objectives The purpose of this study is to explore the essence of trauma experienced by a Christian middle-aged woman due to her tall stature during her developmental years, and to examine how she has undergone healing and growth throughout this journey. The study aims to contribute to the understanding and support of other women with similar experiences by providing insight into the path of self-acceptance and emotional healing. Methods This study adopts an autoethnographic approach, focusing on the researcher's personal experiences of physical trauma related to her tall stature and the subsequent process of recovery. Data were collected and analyzed through self-reflection, autobiographical writings, personal diaries, experiences of inner healing during counseling and missionary training programs, and conversations with family members. Results The findings of the study are categorized into four main themes. First, “The Onset of Loneliness Due to Height” illuminates the emotional isolation and sense of alienation experienced during childhood and adolescence. Second, “Shrinking Within a Growing Body” explores the development of a negative body image and diminished self-concept. Third, “The Hopeful Flutter Beyond the Barrier of Height” discusses the healing process through self-understanding and positive self-acceptance. Lastly, “A New Flight Beyond Wounds” presents the redefinition of identity and personal growth achieved by reframing physical characteristics in a new light. Conclusions The findings of the study are categorized into four main themes. First, “The Onset of Loneliness Due to Height” illuminates the emotional isolation and sense of alienation experienced during childhood and adolescence. Second, “Shrinking Within a Growing Body” explores the development of a negative body image and diminished self-concept. Third, “The Hopeful Flutter Beyond the Barrier of Height” discusses the healing process through self-understanding and positive self-acceptance. Lastly, “A New Flight Beyond Wounds” presents the redefinition of identity and personal growth achieved by reframing physical characteristics in a new light.